Pregnancy has humbled me
Being pregnant was always one of those moments I had dreamed about since I was a little girl. I always knew it would be momentous, and very special.And although I waited quite some time before deciding to fall pregnant, I had always anticipated its wonder.
While I am still pregnant (probably for another week or so only) I found it necessary to document one last time the miracle of pregnancy. Now I know many will disagree with me, and I also know there has been a lot of complaining from my side about the not so great side effects of pregnancy towards the end.
Yet no pain or heartburn or weight gain can take away from the magic and miracle I am overwhelmed by during pregnancy. Every single time I feel this life move inside me I am again humbled, sobered, and floored by the absolute blessing that has been bestowed upon me to be able to experience such incredulity. It is un-explainable…a feeling like no other.
Sometimes I find myself completely mesmerized by the movement of life inside my belly, and every time I realise just how precious, priceless and powerfully meaningful this experience is.
Many times I wonder how I could be deserving of such blessings.
During the final (very uncomfortable) phase of my second pregnancy I have mixed emotions about this pregnancy ending soon. I don’t know if I will ever experience pregnancy again, and that makes me feel like I am not quite ready to let go yet. Without a doubt there is something very beautiful and therapeutic about experiencing a miracle within you. Yet I am firstly looking forward to my non-pregnant body again, As much as I absolutely love my (and any other woman’s pregnant body), at this stage I can do without all the aches and pains and limitations. But more so I am beyond excited (and nervous and scared) about labor starting, because that means very soon after, my life will again forever be altered beyond my wildest expectations. And even though I already have experienced it, I know my heart would never quite know a love like this one, because they are all different, and all so uniquely special.
“Life is more fragile and precious than I can ever comprehend, but believe me, I’m trying.”